Boyfriend won’t let go of girlfriend’s past

Q. I am currently dating a great guy — we get along well, have fun, and care about each other a lot. We’ve been together four months.

At points, mistakes I’ve made in my past have come up, and they really bother him. For example, I told him I drove drunk once, and tried a nonaddictive drug. Both events took place a long time ago; I do not condone drunken driving and have never done it since, and don’t do any drugs or abuse substances at all today.

He continues to bring these instances up, however, as “hurdles” in thinking about my character and our relationship. Do past mistakes make my character permanently flawed? How can I respond to his anger?

I also worry that I’m not good enough for him, and I don’t know what to do about it.

A. Break up with him immediately.

That’s what you do about someone who shames you to the point that you withhold the truth about yourself and doubt your own worth — but who doesn’t break up with you, despite judging you “severely.” And shouldn’t he, if you’re so horrible?

I’m not even going to bother parsing your mistakes; they’d matter now only if they came from a place of cruelty (they didn’t); you didn’t know they were bad (you do); if you still did them (you don’t); or if there were a pattern (there isn’t).

This does matter: Instead of parsing his mistakes, or wondering why yours are the only ones being discussed, or telling him where he can shove his “hurdles,” you’re scrambling to secure his elusive approval.

He is controlling you, expertly. Just note how you are now deferring to his judgment and character — which he has persuaded you are superior to yours — and twisting yourself like a human knitting project just to prove you’re worthy of him. He is perfect, apparently? Or were his mistakes just not as bad as yours?

This also matters: When he got upset about your past, you didn’t square your shoulders and say, “Huh. Apparently you’re perfect?” Or, “I’m not proud I did these things, but I own them, and they helped make me who I am.” Or even, “I’m actually grateful you’re harping on this, because it says more about your character than my mistakes say about mine.”

Meanwhile, he’s not seeing your distress and offering reassurances, or, “Hey, it’s OK, we’re all human”-type expressions of humility and empathy. What that creates is an unhappy and potentially dangerous power imbalance between you. At a mere four months, you’re not even asking whether he’s good for you, you’re so preoccupied by the effort to be good enough for him. Do you see this? More important, do you see the precedent this sets?

Here’s what you wrote: “I ... tried a nonaddictive drug” (my emphasis). And what you’re really saying: “I will backpedal on, minimize, mitigate and buffer my mistakes retroactively because I value his approval above truth or dignity.” Did you also assure him that when you drove drunk, it was only at 20 mph?

I realize I’m not being gentle here, but this isn’t a please-think-about-this situation. It’s a you’re-headed-for-a-very-bad-place situation.

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